I am randomly overcome with anxiety and fear and doubt...Like, at some points of the day I'm like OMG I AM SO READY THIS IS IT!!!! and then five minutes later I'm all
this is a mistake, I have no business running another marathon!
I must be tapering.
I know the best way to set my mind at ease is to reflect on my training. I know I had a really good training cycle this time around, and I need to trust in the training and believe in my ability.
August. After taking literally all of July off (I think I ran a total of two miles), I struggled a little. I was preparing to go back to school and it was brutally hot. But, this training month showed me that I could persevere and go from 0-to-training if I really wanted to.
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| August |
September. Most of this month was awful. Archie's sudden death (ugh, it still feels like a punch in the gut to write that) derailed my training. I took it easy on myself, but this was the one time during the cycle that I really thought I might not really train fully...
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| September |
October. Luckily, the emotional turmoil of September forced me to get real in October. Completing the virtual
Runner's World Festival hat trick and running the
Sanibel 10k really helped. I had my first
100-mile month ever, and that boosted my confidence like crazy. I surprised myself. I trained better than I knew I could.
On race day, I need to remember October. It really showed me what I'm capable of.
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| October |
November. Not only did I complete two
18-milers (one was actually
at the end of October but I'm counting it as November) and a
20-miler, but I did two of those three super-long-runs alone. I'd never done a training run farther than 15 totally alone. I can't doubt myself, because now I know that I really can depend on myself fully, and no one else, to get me to the finish line.
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| November |
Another perk of those long runs is that I've been training on repetitive, fairly boring roads, so the repetitive nature of the race course may be hard, but I'm ready for it. I have multiple podcasts lined up to keep me occupied! I used to struggle with quiet, neighborhood races (it's why I no longer run one of the most
popular half marathons near me), but this time I know what it takes to finish a marathon
and pass the same landmark multiple times.
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| Megan, thank you for helping me see the positive side of this potential challenge!! |
December. I've actually been smart about taper. I didn't just stop running after my 20-miler, and I got another long run in. I've somehow avoided getting sick or injured. My legs may feel weird these days and I'm ridiculously tired, but I know it's got to be mental and I'm physically ready for race day.
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| December - Race day is December 13! |
Looking back, I know this was a good training cycle. I could have done more speed work and been better about cross-training, but I couldn't have done better with the mileage. For where I was at, I think I did a stellar job, and I need to trust in the training and in myself!
ABK
