Well, my first race back was A1A, but my first race really, truly back was this past weekend. And luckily I got a good photo out of it.
|Dr. G told me it would be 3-6 months before I was back in my previous running shape. I'm about four months post-op, so I'd say I'm right on track.|
1. To Dr. Guerra, of course, who believed me when I described symptoms, performed my surgeries, and gave me back my legs.
2. To my PT's office, where a variety of people helped me heal up, get strong, and return to running as quickly as possible.
3. To the vascular surgeon's office, where they dismissed my desire for real answers and treatment because "young women regret surgery scars".
Obviously I mean to thank the first two. I hope it's not premature. I'm still in recovery, and there is still time for things to go wrong...but I feel like I've definitely turned a corner.
I'm debating writing the third letter at all. I'm not sure it will change the doctor's behavior or bring me any peace - to be honest, I'm over it, so I don't need closure or anything. At the same time, maybe hearing that being a misogynistic jerk isn't the best bedside manner would do him good. I may write the letter and not even send it.
When I look at that picture, I see strength, power, determination, and joy. I see me in my element. I can't see the scars, even when I look for them.
On an unrelated note, the Fast and the Furriest was an eye-opener for me, and I can't stop thinking about what my performance this past Saturday means. For one thing, I've realized I don't need to hold back as much as I have been. Track is over, so now I can run more frequently during the week, and I am planning to build in longer runs. I'm not necessarily interested in speedwork yet; right now I'm really enjoying just running. But I have a couple more 5ks coming up in May that I'd like to crush, so we'll see.
And I am tentatively looking for a winter half marathon.
I originally wanted to run the A1A half in 2019 but won't be able to. This weekend when I caught up with Sean he brought up Space Coast, and I think that would be perfect. It was my first marathon, so running it as my first half as a comeback would be really special and would make up for missing A1A. When I floated this idea by Matt, he was all for it.
|I have time to decide, of course.|
Hmmm maybe you could write the letter to the misogynist as an "open letter" and make it go viral! :)ReplyDelete
Oh boy...I don't know if I want viral fame!Delete
Oh that's such a good idea to send the picture to your PT office! I was planning to send a picture to my doctor as well because he was SO supportive through the whole process and always reminded me that I would get back to running and it would be better than ever. I never even though about my PT but he was SUCH a positive, supportive influence too. My doctor's office isn't close but I drive past my PT's office often and I always smile. But I also feel relief that I don't have to go there every week anymore haha!ReplyDelete
I forgot you had that horrible experience at the first doctor's office. I'm glad we both switched to much better doctors who ended up being great fits for us. Honestly, I would send a different picture to the first doctor. I would send him a pic of your scars and just say "I'm so grateful to have worked with a surgeon who had the skill and expertise to leave me with minimal scarring that's barely visible. Thanks for turning me away." But then again I can be a bit petty :)
Haha, the passive-aggressive tone cracks me up! I am still debating what I would say and if I'd even send it...I hate thinking he'd make anyone feel how he made me feel, but then again...most of his patients are probably little old men and women with different needs, and that's WHY he was so narrow-minded about my situation.Delete
If I DO send him a letter, it won't be a thank you in any way. It'll be a "do your job better next time" letter!ReplyDelete